The Heartbreaker's Ball

by Mike Thomas

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1.
The Heartbreaker's Ball 04:24
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Hello hangman, how are you tonight? Are you ignoring me or is the rope just too tight? Breathe breathe breathe breathe listen to me You need need need need To plant your feet Back on the foundation you've built Where have you gone? Where is your will To breathe breathe breathe breathe The air, it feels diseased You need need need need To hold on to everything Welcome one welcome all Dance around while standing tall For the rise of those who fall Welcome to the heartbreakers ball Hello mrs. widow, how'd you come this far? You look marvelous, showing all your scars Take a seat, and lets get started Raise your drink for the departed We still Dance like marionettes But now we sway and carry our debts Half glass empty of a lovers blood A glass so heavy, but is never quite enough
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My Name Is Bliss 02:56
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Hi there, my name is depression Nice to meet you, your my new best friend I've got a problem, and I think you can help Can I love you, cause I hate myself? Your the best, you're pretty amazing And did I mention that face, cause I can't take it My heart swelled up, its about to explode Laugh a little more cause I'm loving your tone Lets talk death or lets talk life Lets talk mean, or lets talk nice Laugh about the stupid fights Scream about our people's lies Lets drive away, lets own the night Lets have a drink and pour some sky Don't worry about it, it's alright I'll get you back to the world on time So Here we go on a journey again All alone, the best of friends Summer begins when winter ends I'll love you forever until forever ends Hi there, my new name is bliss It's been a while, how have you been? Cause I've been great with you still here I found my fate and lost my fear You tore me open, found my heart You finally found out where you are My love is like a broken car And you finally got that bitch to start Now it's running, driving us To a place so glorious Lets stay there, keep it parked Wearing smiles, looking sharp
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Stand To Fall (Prod. By Jake Drew) 03:40
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I'm a young man, with a fake sense of maturity A baby kid, with a desk and no view to see and such small hands, writing checks for the industry doing what he can't to pay for his right to keep his feet young woman, facing fears of maturity A box of sand, letting go, drifting off to sea Dame to be damned, left to face her lack of being with an eyepatch hand, issues hide themselves, they can't be seen. When the high road gets too hard to track, The low road offers a tie with slack No more marks left across your neck no more weight dropped on your back we look forward to our future with our backs to the wall we threw it all away rebuilt and just said fuck it all we're rising up from rock bottom and we won't stand to fall Clocked out of youth An veteran a bit too soon A boy abused A little too short to hang a noose Daddy's little girl Sells herself to a bachelors world Mommys baby boy Plays with Guns like they're toys Hell gun em down Does what he can to run this town Follow him around He has taken over now And here I stand Hoping to someday bite that hand But now I can't Cause I don't think I'm the better man When your breath leaves your chest Don't settle for second best No matter what they all have said You'll conquer them with seconds left We're too young to grow old and we won't stand to fall We let our stories unfold and we won't stand to fall We're too old to die young and we won't stand to fall Because our rise has begun and we won't stand to fall
4.
Inside/Out 03:39
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What's another word for speechless, cause I missed that train of thought. my past of empty words and filthy verbs are a few things I forgot. and I left all my misery in my landmark of a parking lot cause the butterflies that I have gathered have yet to be caught. I think you're so beautiful, I think that you're a catch. and If I'm thinking properly, I've met my perfect match. You make me so nervous, you make me turn red. I'm so used to hurting but I'm smiling instead. You've got a way of turning me inside-out My heart's wide open and exposed to you now You know I need healing cause you see what I'm feeling. Tonight I'm Inside-Out What's another way to love you, cause I'm trying to give my best. I look like shit and you just sit there impeccably well dressed. I'm trying to be better, I'm trying to impress. Cause it's about time I found my own success. So I tear myself open, wishing, hoping you like what you see. and You find something and there's nothing you want but me. take me apart, take my beating heart because it's yours to keep. I fell in love so bad, I hit the ground and I am yearning to hear the sound Of a heartbeat like mine, so synchronized Beating together in time.
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I Am Stuart Minkus Part II 05:24
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Violence is never the answer It's just an option Kill her slowly like a terrible cancer It's the wiser choice Shes got the beauty of a cabaret dancer Proceed with caution And when her guild of filthy souls disbands her They wont defy her voice i know your strategy through and through I know because i used to be just like you I wrote the eulogies, it's what i do Another funeral and reason to despise you Ive come too far to give up now I can't stop until your underground We are gathered here to lay to rest All your stabs in the back And your two faced lies All your vicious attacks And motives have died A part of me is sad But not enough to cry I'll miss the way that you laugh But I love the way that you cried Ill miss the face that you gave me When I caught you that night You're dead to me baby And that's all I need to feel alive Now that you're gone, I feel like I can sleep at night When I turn the lights on You won't be there to take my life I know that it might sound wrong But I still see you when I close my eyes Now that you're gone, I can finally live my life I hope you know i didn't kill you, you did this to yourself And I hope you know that i still feel you, and nothing else I hope you know I'm happy, but this world is still a living hell It makes so much sense to me, you left to protect yourself I can't get the images out of my head I'm alive but my Life's a lie
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Dear Love (Sincerely Hate) 03:41
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Dear love, I can't seem to control The tightened grip of your chokehold Clenching my throat with white knuckles Skin breaks and all my blood flows out Pouring onto this sacred ground It'll take a lifetime to wash out You're freezing cold, I know It's not how I know ill go It's not at all the path I chose I love to hate loving you so much But I should've never used you as a crutch Even though I need your touch Dear love, I can't get you enough Sheer luck is something I can't afford So I don't need you anymore Dear hate, my heart is where you stay Because of you, I feel so torn So I don't need you anymore Dear hate, you're here to crush what I call home You take me over, from head to toe And thanks to you, I'm left alone Your fiery passion to kill me off Won't cease to be until my heartbeat stops All of the effects without a cause You're burning hot, and it shows You're all I've got, everybody knows When will this misery find a close I hate to love hating you so much But you've grown a lot and lost your touch So your foundation is crushed
7.
Night Drive 04:32
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I wake up in a sea Of empty beds and half used sheets I'm torn up, I bleed Out vivid colors and half knit dreams I'm alive, it seems But my mind is dormant and my body's weak I've survived, empty With a broken heart that tries to beat I just really think i need to focus I'm lonely, I'm hopeless And this night drive can't last forever I never thought I'd get the chance to notice I'm broken, but boneless And I should've known we'd never last together I shake off my history Of happiness and hopeful dreams I know I used to be Full of wisdom, and contagious glee But I'm driving To the edge of the earth, hoping I'll see The fall is so deep If I could jump off, it's all I would need Jump jump jump they're cheering me on Theres a first time for everything And a right time for wrong Jump jump jump they're cheering me on I won't ever mean anything Unless it means that I'm gone
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Oh! 03:36
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Come a little closer, whisper in my ear. tell me all the dirty things you know I wanna hear. Let me take you over, do everything I say. breathing heavy on your neck while you're whispering my name. clenching at your bedsheets becoming alive. I love it when you tease me with your love in disguise. Forget all of your problems. Darling, Throw them to the side. and let me be the one you fall in love with for the night. Oh, your body's shaking baby. it's so hot, it makes me. I'm not usually like this but You know I can't fight this. Go all the way tonight and Throw away your vices. touching me, I'm trembling to make you mine. my history is dwindling all for one night. I'm not who I used to be, but I think it's alright. So keep using me, seducing me with that look in your eye. the lightest touch, it's not enough with clothes on the floor. It's pleasing you, you're teasing me, can't take anymore I'll get another night like this with honest true luck. and all the screaming silence says you just want to.. You can't take it, trembling hips don't say a word, baby, bite your lip. forget your problems, forget my name play along with my love game
9.
Time Of My Life 04:27
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How's my smile, does it look too fake? (I Hate saying this, but I love what you think) It's just been a while since it was on my face. (It's been too long) Don't worry honey, I'm here to stay (I'm not going anywhere) Cause time is money and I run the bank (waste it all, I couldn't care) Let's trade stories like a gift exchange cause your's always feel like christmas day I'll starve myself for just a taste and I'd kill a man for just a day with you. we're losing our lives a single minute at a time, and there's no point in being alive if your hand is not in mine. baby, I could show you the world. Once I know you'll be my girl let's just start the car and runaway. I don't care how far, let's just go today. let's sing a song in harmony get the lyrics wrong but it's alright with me let's show the world what we're all about. a boy and girl lacking doubt. I'll give it all like charity, and you don't even have to marry me. Have faith in what you believe. I Just hope in time, you'll find faith in me. love has always been a sick disease. please don't let it get ahold of me.
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Say Cheese And Simile 03:54
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I keep singing for a dead scene, Not a single human being is listening all the radios are off the air, screaming at mirrors, it's not fair cause no one cares. This was never about you. Though you wish it were, about him or her, but you don't really hear the words. I don't reveal my ghosts for you to fight them, so all hope is flying out the window. Here's a toast to get your attention. I'm doing this for me, Nothing's as it seems I'm all alone and still I sing. To nobody at all I need is these four walls. you were never meant to take this call. When I'm finished with my work, exposing all that hurts It's all unheard, words are words. "Oh great, he's lost his mind again, a lovely melody for the filthy head. What's he pretending for?" It's called a fucking metaphor. This is my therapy, these are all memories Sung in a melody, it's all I ever do. But every piece is new, You never listen to what I say Because of you.
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Tombstone 03:50
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Muster Up Your Courage So That They Can Shoot It Down. You Look Like You’ve Been Hurting, I’ve Heard That Something’s Been Going ‘Round. You’re So Lost Searching For What You Know You’ll Never Find. Digging Graves, Like The Devil’s Slave. The Truth Is In The Lies. We’ll Die Together When We’re Finally Alone. When We’re Buried Stationary, They’ll Cry And Tell Us How We’ve Grown. They’ll Try Their Best To Hide All That We’ve Shown. But Our Tales Will Tell Themselves On Our Tombstone. Trust Their Love, Misguided Virgin You Have Let Me Down. Sleep With Both Eyes So Wide Open, That Won’t Mute Their Sound. So Calm and So Determined, Says The Shaking Gun. No Palm Or Normal Sermon Says It’s In Good Fun. The Weight Is Getting Heavy On Shoulders Hung So Low. Face Down, They All Feed Me To The Hungry Crowd Below.
12.
No Buddies 04:57
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Left for dead in my own bed Let's forget what it all meant before you sewed my eyes shut and put me to rest I regret the regretting all the memories I keep forgetting You would cry all night thinking if I die, It'd be alright Another Night for you to take off maybe You walk around with your face off baby All your evil has paid off lately when all along, You couldve saved me I started living for what I thought was worth dying for Now that I've been torn, can't take your lying anymore I'm opening the door, broken bloody glass is lying with you on the floor I can't love you after all the things you said to me My words go right above you, to say the least, you're dead to me Am I the one that deserves to be lonely? Not my fault that I've got nobody I See Them staring at me Eyes are red, Ears are bloody from things you said about me they've got no choice but to believe Everything that comes out your mouth You sit in silence and your lips pout You get back to your suburban hideout to let your little demons take a rest and lie down. You've got two lives, who cares if one's falling soon enough, your lies will start clawing at both your eyes and you'll keep stalling to keep them from hearing me calling The Nobodies Got No Buddies But Themselves
13.
Title Fight 03:41
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I could lay here forever, until the day I die Because when were together, everything's alright You've got the eyes of an angel why are you afraid to fly? You've got my heart strings tangled when your hand's in mine Time has stopped, lets set the clock Back to our favorite time of night I go in shock when our lips lock my heart beats me in a title fight It's a ticking time bomb, and I just can't stop from letting it explode So baby, please, just stay with me Because I'm never going home I just can't stop smiling, cause I think this might be love My beating heart keeps fighting, to get out of the grave it dug You've got the heart of a lion, why would you be scared of mine? It's been preparing to die and you just brought it back to life Resuscitate the need to wait Concentrate on future days For a possible forever, cause were unstoppable together Eradicate my bitter ways Contemplate the better days Forget of all the ties we sever, and make way for our endeavors
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The Chase 04:02
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I Wish I Was Mad, I Wish I Didn’t Understand Where You’re Coming From. I Wish This Was Easy, I Wish It Was Harder To Say You’re Right I Wish You Were Mine. I Wish We Didn’t Have To Give This Time. But That’s Just How It Goes. I Wish You’d Attack Me From Right Behind My Back. At Least The Pain Would Make Sense. You’re So Perfect, The Wait Is Worth It But Wishes Never Come True I Deserve This, I Have Earned This But I’m Still Feeling Blue. We Could Be, We Should Be Together With Nothing To Lose. I’m Meant To Be Happily Chasing After You. I Wish I Was Numb, I Wish I Couldn’t Feel A Thing I Feel Everything With You I Wish I Could Take All Your Pain Away I Wish I Had Something To Prove I Wish I Didn’t Know How To Love I Wish I Didn’t Have To Grow Up I Wish We Could Just Runaway I Miss Smiling In My Sleep I Miss Belonging To Somebody I Miss Looking Forward To Another Day I Wanna Know What It’s Like To Dream About You At Night And Wake Up Guilt-Free I Wanna Know What It’s Like To Have You By My Side And Live Happily I Wanna Make You Smile, Darling But I Don’t Know What To Do Because I’m Chasing After You.
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The Dead and Pathetic (Have Greatly Outnumbered Us) 04:36
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Born on a valentines day In bloody battered home The ironic nature of his life Cause today he's all alone They would speak his name in foreign tongues And annunciate his flaws His beating bleeding heart of love Has been surgically extracted with the harlots claws Doctor doctor, put me out I won't struggle, I won't make a sound All the symptoms youve diagnosed Are side effects of fighting ghosts Can you do it? Can you fix it? Can I find a way to just live with it? Oh god oh god, I'm bleeding out I need your help, I need it now Pull the trigger, walk away Like anybody else would stay Can you say you did away with Me today? Because it seems, I'm not dead, I'm not dead yet But I don't have a heartbeat left Born on a valentines day With a shattered vinyl mind He speaks of misery and tragedy In every fucking line Someone help him, or lay him to rest Or watch him suffer til he's dead Let him live, it's torturous He's miserable, here with us You've walked amongst the living dead You've slept beside them in your bed You've given them a place to feed Torn apart, you're growing weak Now that you are one of us Kill them all, fuck their love Here's the gun, now do the deed Aim and fire, right at me The bitter beginner, the sinner The hypocritical winner shows the ice is thinner in winter. Showing off the bruising liver. You left in the night because the dead are alive and you hang your heavy deadly selfish head in despise
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Light Me Up 03:46
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Do you remember that little line? It was so clever, It made you mine It meant forever, til the end of time But I cant remember it to save my life (All I Know Is) You light me up like a firework So bright with love, and thats why this hurts you light me up with exciting words Dont fight this love I know that you deserve I remember when we finally took a chance but that died quicker than most my shitty bands Im a man thats lost all logic, left feeling so nostalgic Im in love, you can bet I called it. My lifes a problem and you have solved it. the fiery heart still reminds me of the nights where wed be driving. Staring at the stars, so blinding but reality keeps on biting. How can I compete with college? I fight what I cant accomplish. I Hope that youll acknowledge The irony in how cold the fall is You light me up like a cigarette You take a puff of the sweet regret You wash me off but you still smell it Yeah, You light me up like a cigarette You know I could never love you enough You deserve every star tonight, darling look above (and Youll know) Ive been lit up since the day we met and You can trust that every promise kept will stay locked up inside my head I love you so much so please dont forget me, Ill miss us dearly.
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Blunt Drama 03:51
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You traitor, you liar Your dignity is expired Im The fuel to your fire All you need now is the lighter I'm giving up on you I'm giving up on you Cause you gave up on the truth That your self abuse was living proof of what you wanna lose I'm winning, I'm running Your life on strings like a puppet Your limbs just keep numbing And your like a toy I can't have fun with I can see it drives you wild Mind is racing, a thousand miles Can I get a little smile? You're all error without the trial I won't quit until your body drops You're at the edge and you're falling off Rushing in, the wind won't stop I'll take my time, I'll do it slow I'll take your life, and kill your hope I'll carve the lies on your tombstone You're crying, but fighting With your sad displays of violence You're closing your eyelids Like your makeup can disguise it Your a sick little monster Your pathetic, heart is colder You've got a heavy roster Of demons on your shoulders I'm winning, You're losing Your life by your own choosing The vices your using Are far from pain inducing So get up off the floor If you can't take it anymore Your Mother natures whore And have nothing to live for Your Time is up, the curtains closed Peel off your skin like dirty clothes No tears shed when you finally go Come one come all, lets start the show Use the knife in my back to slot your throat
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Emma 06:00
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I love you, biggest lie you've ever told me right? I don't need you, you've made your point just fine (I should've died last night) 7 years in the gutter, dead and gone Just like me, you've known it all along (This will be your last song) I'm tired and angry How can you face me And still sleep at night knowing I'm broken and lonely Thank you for showing me The darker side of wrong and right If you don't feel a heart beat, When you think about me I hope it tears you apart By the time that you wake up I'll be on the pavement Face down the way you want Would you kill a man for what you think is love,you would You have and I bet it feels good the way you knew it would Would you follow your heart, breaking another one A heart that's beats and bleeds love struck blood A decade is silenced from emotional violence I didn't take my own life, I died by your knife
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Shotgun Wedding 03:44
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Here's The Tale of a shotgun wedding a life of false love and regretting you know it never had to be like this should've known from the beginning what it meant to be in love You know it never had to be like this There is never a right time, that we'll ever see a fine line Empty handed at a knife fight, I think I just lost my life line Tearful eyes and an attempted smile, tell our lies and stay awhile But in the end we go out in style, to live the rest of our lives in denial Go on and act like I'm not hurt Move on, looking forward to the worst I was being myself, I was being me I would take it back, but you eventually Slowed down, took a breath and forget about me Here's the story of a love in costume With a scent of hateful perfume And I can taste it with every kiss Who the hell do you think you're playing Your little heart keeps decaying And I can taste it with every kiss Well we tried our best, yeah didnt we? And we ended up so miserably Short lived, long term memories You called it off, but in reality You keep running back to me Short lived, long term misery You never doubted doubting me So now your surrounded by the sea Under water it's hard to breathe And you try to forget about me.
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Tear You Apart 04:00
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You always take what you desire Nothing gets in your way You don't dance unless you're in the fire With a smile burnt into your face I've met a lot of angry people like you before But darling, your not the same I know you're not the type that I should adore But we're all going to hell anyway If you're heart turns the other cheek Allow me to make you feel weak There's a fire in my heart for you And my need for your passion is long overdue I can spread the embers all over your heart Only if you let me tear you apart I can take you to dark familiar place And we can get visual of our mistakes I can tell your smiling even if its dark And nows my perfect chance to tear you apart You never take a break when you're tired You can keep going all night You don't place faith into a liar You'd much rather watch them cry I've never seen such passionate feelings burn like yours do in your eyes I've never been one to say I'm weak, but baby, I can't stay disguised If you can't find what you seek, It's probably cause you're looking for me I can be the man you didn't know you ever wanted I can be the man you can finally fall in love with I can be the man that proves you have a heart But only if I'm the man that gets to tear you apart
21.
Skeletons 04:14
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We've all got skeletons Hiding out in our closets But mine is missing a door They're hung up like high class suits Distinguished proof of my dying youth And I can't take it anymore Each bone is a memory In reverie And I just don't have the energy to Bring them all back to life To go in and turn on the light Will they remember me And what I used to be Nostalgia with a side of empathy They tell me breathe you'll be just fine Just get some sleep and close your eyes Where the hell have I been, I'm running out of space in my closet of regret I'm making room for new mistakes I know I'll get caught in between I scream but their not listening I tear apart my head To put these skeletons to bed We've all got a dark past Of love that didnt last Mines full of love that didnt start Shut the door and you're just fine There's nothing more that you can hide Except for that barely beating heart Each word is a bloody blade Stabbing with what they say They play me like I'm a game Saying it just has to be this way Shocked by the subtlety Of the sight of them killing me You know that it's not a lie That I'm feeling terrified I've turned to ash and I Can't help but feel like I'm no longer alive I can't remember who I used to be These memories are killing me
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Introduction (To The End) 01:52
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A Long Time Coming 06:42
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It's been a long time coming since my feet hit the ground And they've been running, but my heads in the clouds I need this now And the song I've been humming spreads its melody around Stuck in your head, a decade of sounds I need to just breathe in breathe in and out (I swear I'll never let you down) My baby teeth vibrate From All the desperate noises that my eager voice will make This is all new to me A gift a blessing, I'm undressing who I used to be And the years go by, and still I try To put the tears I cry into the words I write I've learned to control it, like a lover I hold it It's all I've got, when I feel lost And I get scared when no ones there Like I've lost their care, screaming its not fair Toughen up dont let them see Just let them hear the words you sing Blessed to be a blessing, a great person once said Thank you for putting all of these words in my head I swear we're gonna make it, no thoughts of "instead" If it wasn't for you, I'd probably be dead All my friends keep leaving To find a better life out there, wearing ties, they've cut their hair All my lovers are moving on Finding love in a box of rings Cracking open bottled dreams Don't get me wrong, I'm proud I'd never leave you out But it's my turn its time For success it's mine I've been waiting for so long I'm finally right about my wrongs I know things didn't work And we exchanged jagged words We both know we've been hurt But this isn't the first time I've cried, I've been doing this dance my entire life Since you've left, I've been a mess I told myself I'd never sing again At least not for myself, its true that's why this song is for you Lets dance, and let our smiles catch our tears Elegantly without our futures to fear We no longer feel so underproduced With bloody ears from the thunders abuse Dance the night away like it'll be our last With every loved one youve lost in the past As the music takes us all We won't forget the heartbreakers ball

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released May 3, 2013

All songs Produced (Except Track 3), Written, Engineered by Mike "Thomas" Schraeder

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