1. |
Prelude
02:49
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Wake up, you're dreaming
Of a better life
Get your head out of the sky
Steady out your breathing
You'll be alright
Now go outside and earn your dime
I know it's hard
Living someone else's life
Straying far from your design
This isn't who you are
Not what you should be
You've got a glass half empty of someone else's drink
So stand up, cauterize the wounds
Just man up, tell yourself the truth
You're meant for more than this
It's your life, make yourself proud of it
If you can't do it on your own,
Don't lose faith, cause you will grow
Into something beautiful
Don't you want to be beautiful
You've survived through worse than this
The burning home of the fatherless children who were forced to grow up all alone until they're dad could come back home
You've got a life to sing about
The world is waiting, don't let it down
So open your heart, let it out
You have the talent, do it now
These demons in your heart
Will try to break you down
Attempts to tear you apart
Will be silenced by the sound
But I believe in you
I'm the voice inside your head
Saying that you can't lose
I'm your imaginary friend
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2. |
Cliff Diver
05:15
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Welcome to the top of rock bottom
You've reached your peak, but dont see it as a problem
You're a second away, but you don't got a lot of
Time to waste so smoke em if you got em
Quit waiting for your glory days
I bet they came and gone away
While you sat there with a twisted face
Just thinking of the words to say
They'll never come out right you know
You'll never get the perfect flow
With the perfect words, to show you hurt
But the love you deserve, is a love you earn
Here we are, right back where we belong
It's getting dark, but I don't want the light on
I feel so broken, I'm on the edge and hoping that the rocks below are sharp enough to take my life
I just can't focus, in the deep end of the ocean and I feel the water fill my lungs to my surprise
I'm breathing, believe me, though I know it's something you wouldnt ever want
I'm bleeding, but I see that, I'm more alive than I ever was
Welcome to the bottom of the highest peak
Here you'll begin rotting and feel so weak
Obstacles so small become the hardest feat
But I'm sure you'll fall in love with every demon you meet
Quit hoping that you'll rise to fame
Cause it won't happen right away
You've still got a lot of blood to pay
And thoughts in your brain to throw away
Cause you know they won't love them all
The words you write upon the wall
They watched you rise and hoped you'd fall
So make them cry while you're standing tall
This isn't who I am
A paraplegic dreaming of a world I can't stand
This wasn't what I planned
A massacre that crash and burns, I don't deserve to understand
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3. |
Done
03:50
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4. |
Sticks & Stones
03:20
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Please Let me apologize, I was gone so long with my tongue tied
I was wasted, pasted looks upon my face and I forgot to live my life
A lot has changed here since I left, I was a spawn from hell now heavensent, I was facing hatred, back and forth pacing, begging for a cigarette
it still feels strange, to be writing you this letter
But things have changed, im hoping for the better
Replaced my bones with sticks and stones so they could never hurt me
Words are words that don't deserve the chance to ever burn me
I'm fine right now but believe me, I'm still learning
That when I'm down, the tables are still turning
Combed my hair, put on my tie, I forgot what it was like
To make it, hate it, and then attempt to change it only just to hit retry
I found love within myself, that let me love somebody else
I was so shocked, jaw dropped to the floor and fell off
I didn't even have to talk
Its so weird, to say I'm feeling happy
I've cried my tears, but now I can't stop laughing
Got the devil on my shoulder, and he won't stop weighing me down
My gun is the holster, and I'm still gonna keep it around
Cause someday, I still might need it
When I'm knocked down, when I won't stop bleeding
But nothings gonna keep myself from getting back up off of the ground
I replaced my bones
With sticks and stones
Now they don't know
I'm invincible
Take your best shot, gimme all you've got
I won't feel a thing
I won't stop, til I reach the top
Of this long forgotten scene
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5. |
Imaginary Enemies
04:18
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Bloody knuckles
Kept swinging for the fences
You only hurt yourself
What a lovely struggle
You tried keep up your defenses
You're weak and we can tell
Who are you without your friends
The ones that live inside your head
The friends that wear the skin you shed
To shield you from what should be dead
I've kept my imaginary enemies
Locked inside my head, I'm asking on my hands and knees
Let em out x3
I've let my imaginary enemies
Roam Too close to home and now they've got the best of me
Get em out x3
Guilty innocence
Hands are soaking wet
With a loved ones blood
Filthy in a sense
I bathe in this regret
Is this really what they want
Think about your life without us
Just take a look at where you wound up
You never thought to ever doubt us
The silent voices scream the loudest
If you want us to leave,
Than we leave as a family
No man left behind
Hold my hand as we wait to die
If you want us to go,
Then let's bow as the curtains close
Here lies the end of time
Squeeze that trigger and close your eyes
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6. |
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I waste my time in front of a panel of judges
Waiting to see if my act was enough, but they're not budging
Just a person without a soul
you don't get hurt, how magical
You've got a heart, it's just buried deep
I'll rip it out for the world to see
Your pathetic but don't let it get to your head if you let it in, you'll end up six feet deep in the ground
Just take your medicine, feel better then youll climb out of this bed of sin, those voices won't be making a sound
But I'll be telling you to hell with you, you'll write some songs and sell a few, then that's when you will finally see
That you and I are so alike, and now it's time to question why you ever tried to fuck with me
Whoa, I wanna make you scream like
Whoa, I wanna make you bleed
Whoa don't want this to seem like
Torture, I'm just here to make a scene
Whoa, I wanna feel your blood boiling
Whoa, make you sick like poison
Whoa, im not here to ruin your life, I just came to watch you destroy it
I'm not here to make an impression
I'm just here to spread the infection
My mind is lost, I've got no direction
I'm just here to spread the infection
2nd Verse Written By: Jake Drew
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7. |
Too Far Gone
04:16
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Tell me I'm like nobody else
Tell me im worth the kiss and tell
Tell me I'm everything that you wanted to be
Because you hate yourself
Tell me you'll never lie again
Tell me whose lying in your bed
Tell me that it meant nothing
This little something was just accident
Tell me did he fall for you
Just like I do
Everyday, though you say this love just can't be true
Tell me that it's just a fling
I took too seriously
Im lying to myself thinking that you'd tell me anything
I was never gonna be the man for you
I was never gonna be the one you choose
But I thought I'd be the one to hear goodbye
Don't you owe me that, you told me that
I should just relax, cause you'll be back
But here I am, and I thought you'd never lie
Tell me that you miss me every day
Tell me that you feel so out of place
Tell me that you miss the look I gave to you while you lied to my face
tell me that you finally changed your ways
Tell me that youre feelings never changed
Tell me that you wanna pick up where we left off when we parted ways
You really think I'll fall for that
Cause girl I know your tactics
I'm an expert in the ways of getting stabbed right in the back
Who do you think you are
To think that we could start
To try extending our happy ending
With a broken heart
I know youll find goodness in someone soon
And expose it so that it can be consumed
Filled with love, gave my heart to you
Now My chest is a grave that has exhumed
Too far gone are the days of you and I
Being with you is signing up for suicide
You done so much damage in so little time
Too far gone are the days of loving you
There's no fixing what love has done to you
But I'm willing to bet the scars aren't as big as mine
Can't believe it took me this long to be over you
But the punishment you'll get is long overdue
Is this the goodbye that you had in mind
I've gone crazy cause you made me numb
Now youre paying for the things you've done
Again, You're gone before I hear you say goodbye
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8. |
One In The Same
04:54
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There are two kinds of people in the world: the people in the world and me
It could've been different, if you werent so distant while I was learning how to breathe
Now I questioned everything, I don't trust your alibis, I keep searching for answers, a cure for this cancer, but I think I'm out of time
Tell me when the clock strikes twelve
Where do you go?
They say only time will tell
But it don't know
I remember finding you lying, on the curb crying, begging for a soul to sell
And I recall trying, to stop you from flying off the edge and into hell
But There are two kinds of people in the world: the people in the world and me
I could've saved you, but I wanted to break you before you had the chance to leave
I burned it down, my paradise
I watched it eat my friends alive
I'm still smiling cause I'm not the one in the flame
I've earned your doubt, your glaring eyes
You left without saying goodbye
Youll be happy that were not one in the same
There are so many problems with the world
Imagine if they ended with me
Youd grab your torches and pitchforks
And storm to my front door
And demand to watch me bleed
It'd be good for the cause, I know
But I'm not feeling charitable
I'll be stubborn and selfish, while you're tongue tied and helpless, isn't that the way it goes?
Tell me why am I this way?
With a heart so full of hate
I admit that I'm okay
With making sure you dont see another day
Cause I remember hearing you call out right before the fallout, hoping I would hear you scream
But if I had the choice now, you wouldn't have a voice now, and I'd let you die in front of me
Cause there are two kinds of people in the world: the people in the world and me
You could've saved me, but you wanted to break me, the vengeance tastes oh so sweet
There's a battle to the death going on
The people in the world versus me
It doesn't matter who's right or wrong
But soon the people in the world will see
That I'm a force to be reckoned with,
The personified equivalent
Of a bomb with a nervous tick
You had me right where you wanted me
as you know it wasn't what it seemed
Cause now its looking like I win
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9. |
The First Time
04:31
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Time is the enemy
And I've been trying to see
If i can let you go
I'm losing all my hope
I'm useless and I can't cope
With the truth that you aren't coming home
But please don't let me sink
If you won't keep watching
From the safe dry ground
If you give me your hand
And pull me onto land
I'd love to show you around
You were never one to break a promise
You were never one to throw it all away
I was bound to find out there's a first time for everything
You were never one to act so heartless
You were never one to run so far away
I was bound to find out there's a first time for everything
So I started my life alone
And darkness became my home
Since we parted, I haven't been the same
Lonely I wait to hear the
Phone ring to hear you say
Don't worry things won't ever change
But please don't let me think
That you might be coming home, cause that just ain't true
Unfortunately, you don't need me as much as I need you
The first times the last time for everything
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You been trying to figure out just what my disease is
I respect your hateful and Inconsiderate thesis
Oh honey
You're not so far far off
See I was born in blood and I was beaten to the bone
They said that no loves me and that I'd surely die alone
It's funny
That I have a heart at all
And if you see me crawling through your nightmares, don't be afraid of getting scared
I define the evil of a villain
I epitomize the motive for a killing
I just don't look right for the publics eye
Cause I take pride in taking life
I see red in the darkest night
And I've been kept away from light
You'll all get what deserve
So try to keep a smile while you burn
They used to poke my brain to figure out what might be wrong
But the prodding of my organs was the problem all along
If they paid attention, they might've known
That if you play with bombs, they'll be tempted to explode
2nd Verse written by: Jake Drew
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11. |
Spiders
05:23
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I let the spiders take what they need
If it keeps them alive, then why shouldnt i let them feed
On my skin, poisoned blood within my broken, battered veins
The spiders and I are one in the same
I Sit still in the dark for days on end
All the blood from my heart rushed to my head
I Boarded the windows, so that nobody know exactly where I hide
Just me and the spiders, alone inside
Dont be afraid to take a bite
Out of my heart, I've got nowhere to be
Tonight, don't bite too hard or you might make me bleed
On the floor, or the pavement, just another mess to clean
See the horror on their faces, watch the colors leave
This tumbler of poison that I drop to the floor
Doesn't taste as rich, on my cracking lips as it did before
It was a cherished possession, we only brought it out to celebrate
But things have changed
I accept my fate and disintegrate
Fall onto the ground below
The floorboards cold against my face
I make the spiders feel at home
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12. |
Ladies and Gentlemen
04:07
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I've been drowning in my own self pity
don't think I have it in me to act so positively I won't
Bother my loved ones cause they're busy trying to make a living, while this liquor makes me dizzy at home
Just take another drink, you're gonna be alright
Lock up all the doors, and don't go outside
These friends in your head are everything you need
Check your pulse, you lived another day
I can promise there are more that'll come your way
But for now, here's a toast for the mentally deceased
Ladies and gentlemen, I hope you've enjoyed your evening
But I'm afraid this is not your captain speaking
See something else has taken over
don't worry you won't feel a thing if you're not sober
Ladies and gentlemen, you've driven me insane
So know what happens here tonight won't be in vain
See something else controls me now
So buckle in before we hit the ground
I wake up with a brand new pale complexion
I have no recollection of anything that happened before
That night, when I learned of your deception,
My head was yours to mess with, and now your bodies lay on the floor
Now those flashing lights are parked right outside
They know what you've done, there's no place to hide
They're gonna break down, break down that fucking door
You can scream for help, till your voice goes out
But no one's coming here to save you now
You can't rely on your good luck anymore
This is how it could've ended
None of this has happened yet
You have a chance to make amends you
Can man up, just stand up and try to cleanse yourself
And if you can't do what you have to
Just stand back and relax, and allow your friends to help
Ladies and gentleman, I'm so sorry that I
Let you down again, I'm going mad I think I
Might need to unlock the door and leave this
Home I filled with demons, but I think that should leave it in flames
Ladies and gentlemen, I think I'm ready to come back to my senses, Im sick of feeling numb
Im leaving my enemies behind me
To let my imaginary friends guide me home
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Step back, relax there's a monster behind these bars that doesn't take too kindly to loitering, it's boiling his blood to think about tearing you to pieces, it's like he needs revenge, like he depends on every bar in front of him to break and bend, and when they do you'll meet your end
Im a beast, but maybe you're the monster
You bare teeth, but baby mine are sharper
And here tonight, someone's gotta die
I fell in love right before I lost her
Maybe I should've stayed beneath the water
I said I'd kill for you, but I'd never die
Back off, you lost, there's no need to keep going on, you're attempts are looking pathetic, let it go and maybe you'll find some closure isn't that what you need, you need to believe that in order to breathe, someone's else has gotta bleed, well as you can see, you were wrong
I gave it all to you and you threw it back in my face
The life you choose to live made you such a disgrace
I know I'm not perfect, I'm not the only one
But it seems that I'm the only person standing up to you
What are you going to do?
I gave my heart to you and you just let it break
But now I'm hunting you and I'll take it away
Cause now I'm onto you and I can't let you live
I hate what I am, but its better than dead
Cause I can take a stand, and tear you to shreds
And when its finally over, you won't get to live
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14. |
A Million Questions
04:27
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15. |
Headlights
04:09
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Swirl that poison round your glass again
You down it like water or at least, that's what you pretend
7 orders in and your eyes start seeing red
7 minutes later you swerve over the bend
Headlights broke the surface, let air into space
we floated from earth with our smiles on our face
We'll find a new home, find something far away
We'll live there alone and we'll finally be safe
We'll flatten the mountains and raise up the plains
We'll climb to the top and release all our pain
Finding the beauty in seeing the end knowing
We'll never be forced to see it again
The rain poured so hard, it put out the flames
got out of the car and I pulled you away
You were barely breathing according to ambulances
and I gave my prayer, bleeding, for second chances
I was bleeding for second chances
They pressed on your chest, put their ears to your mouth
I hoped for the best but then nothing came out
I begged them to help, I screamed and I cried
and I blame myself because I could've tried
to save, I loved you, I failed you that night
and I stood above you and watched as you died
they buried you after they asked me to speak
I barely had these words inside me:
Headlights broke the surface, let air into space
You floated from earth with a smile on your face
You found a new home, something so far away
You're not alone and you're finally safe
Please just wait for me cause I'm on my way
you'll emerge from white light and I'll be okay
Until then I love you and I'll see you soon
We'll meet again if it's the last thing I do
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16. |
Here Is Gone
07:00
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Its a little late, you've said your peace
But laid it out so violently
Youre gone, I'm left here all alone
My dearest friend, your finally free
You've made it clear you don't need me
Youre gone but don't think of going home
I've imagined it a thousand times
The knife in my back takes your life
And leaves me with your open eyes
Don't close them yet, stay alive to see
Just what the hell you've done to me
Your little fling turned out to be my disease
Does he love you yet, just like I did
No, his loves like yours, it won't exist
No imagination will bring it back to life
All those years, to end like this
Screaming whispers, clenching fists
Its funny, cause that's where ill begin
Im ashamed to know that I believed all of your lies
And its taken me so long to finally realize
I never meant a single thing my dear
I was the target of your harmless little love game
But now you're lonely and the only thing I have to say
Is I hope your grateful that you're far from here
Cause here is gone
I recall that fateful night
You broke me, then said we'll be fine
I believed another lovers lie
Tore down the walls, when I came to
I loved to hate loving hating you
The home I know is no longer mine
I hope he crushed you terribly
I hope he stuck around to watch you bleed
I hope he made you feel so worthless
I only regret that it wasn't me
To watch you be a mess while you beg and plead
But ironically, you two are fucking perfect
I'm fine with knowing that I'll never be the same
But when I look at this place, I just feel the pain
All over again, its plays over in my head
I hope he gives you everything that I didn't have
I hope he gains the courage to rip your heart in half
I hope he makes you feel like I did and wish you were dead
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17. |
Rattle My Cage
04:11
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Tell the hairs on your arm
To reach for the sky
Don't make me have to tell you twice
I don't want you getting in my way
But I wanna see you try
Why dont you Rattle my cage for a moment,
Why don't you send shivers down my spine
Why don't you figure out what made me so broken
And tell me that its okay to cry
Look me in the face and just focus
On the tears that won't stop leaving these eyes
I'm so sick of keeping them open
So here I am to say a final goodbye
Tell the voice in my head
To bite its tongue
There's no need to speak cause the damage is done
I'm not sure why I'm surprised that I lost tonight
Cause in the morning I won't see the sun
Why cant you tell me what you love about me?
Why can't you even look me in my face?
Why can't you hear a single thing that I'm shouting
Why can't you just stop walking away
I thought for sure that you were all that i wanted
But in the end, you planned on taking my life
So here I sit and now I'm exhausted
So I'm here to say a final goodnight
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18. |
Imaginary Friends
05:54
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I guess I gotta face this
I guess its time to finally turn the page
A lot of things are changing
Its okay
The look upon your face is
Telling me you've gotta get away
These times are too dangerous
For me
When you hit rock bottom, you know
That you have gotta just go back to where you began
Find out where you went wrong
And hope that you still belong
With me hand in hand
If you wanna fall apart, I'll break down right beside you
Cause Your broken heart is mine too
If it gets way too dark, then I will blindly guide you
no one knows the dark like I do
I know it isn't easy
I know you may feel like no one cares
But you've gotta just believe me
They do
Its easy while you're keeping
Yourself from looking scared
They don't see you're bleeding
But I do
All of those voices you hear
May not come in so clear some times
But still listen in
They may speak of your fears
And they may bring you to tears, but some times theyll be your friend
Those demons in your heart
Will try to break you down
Attempts to tear you apart
Will be silenced by the sound
But I believe in you,
I'm the voice inside your head
Saying that you can't lose
I'm your imaginary friend
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